Hope you are feeling better, gotzl! Take it slow!
I understand the anxieties & the disproportionate faith we have in medicine, but no one can escape the big question „what if the big accident happens?“, the dreaded „game over“... med tech can only go so far & I don’t really trust hospitals; they‘ll keep you plugged into machines forever or as long as your bank account allows it. Look at Schumacher! Some register for euthanasia in Switzerland. Would you? ... everyone‘s got a plan B
I also invest in other things to fall back on should my body deny me the pleasures of my sports, like culture, relationships, curiosity, intellectual pleasures, wonderment, all the things that require a big, childish open heart... that will surely get you in trouble
Just don’t fall for over-hyped, over-priced treatments & think WITH your doctor; neither doc nor gov is in your skin; you are!